I AM NOT A POET... but i am trying to write my feelings today...

last night... when i was thinking of you.....
in my thoughts.................
i heard your voice......& felt presence of you. !
Someone was so near to me..... & i knew that was you....
you was sitting in front of me &
i was sharing my tears..happiness & Smiles with you...!
the Golden & unforgettable Moment ...
when i saw in your eyes.... & i forgot all my Pains....
i found myself in a different world....
i was not alone there.. on every step of my life you was there....
That time you make me realize.... "what is Love"
its all about, for me what all you sacrifice....!!
you know i am not Perfect.... You know I am not the Best...
But i know You are the ONly one for me....
You are my world & universe ....
to describe what you are for me....i really dont have much words.....!!


i am really missing you today..................... urs
Parul bhatnagar (5-jul-11)

Zindagi ek uljha sa sawaal hai......
Kuch lamhon me jee liya jo maine vo adhura khwaab hai...!
Main sochta hun to koi jawaab nahi milta...
Main khojta hun to koi raaj nahi milta...
Zindagi kuch aise hi ajeeb kisson ka bawaal hai....!!
Main lada hun is zindagi se kai baar.....
Kisi ko pane ke liye to kabhi apne wjood ke liye...
Par fir jab- jab dekha apne Khali hathon ko ......
To sirf kuch tamanayen thi .... bikhri si...
Kuch sookhe patton jaise (bejaan ) armaan the...
kuch dhundhli yaaden thi .... Feeki si....
kuch bhooli bisri baaten thi...
aankhon me khare aansu the.....
aur honthon se koso door muskaan thi..!!
Sab kho diya tha bas kisi ko pane ki aas me...
Shayad dil bacha tha.... par dhadkan k bina...
zakhmi the bas dard bhari yaadon se...!!


- Parul, 24-May-11

Some lines ( not Poetry) Straight from HEART

What we want in LIFE..... a world full of Joys & Happiness ...
But it’s so difficult to find a world where all your dreams come true...
its so difficult to find where you can forget all your Tears...
& live a Life full of Sweets & Sugar..!!
But ... a BIG But ..... what we have....
Sorrows... Pain.. Shattered Dreams..... broken Hearts....
We are alive but with no Emotions...
Heart is still Beating but our Expectation are dead....
We have Friends but our Faith is lost .... !!
Don’t know for whom we are living.,.... Don’t know now what we want from LIFE...
Sometimes i really DOUBT ... IS IT A REAL LIFE??
I used to Smile ALONE..... without any reason as i don’t have any Reason....
I used to Laugh on myself.... on My LIFE....!! After that laugh.... i used to sit Silent .. with One or Two TEARS in eyes.... then a long Breathe ... & i try to Forget all my Pains...!
Sometimes i used live in a FAKE WORLD..... i used to ignore my PAINS.... just for Little HAPPINESS.... but somewhere in my heart i know that ONE DAY i have to CRY....i have to Lose.... I have to ..... !!
But Why i am Doing this..... Still i have some HOPE....???? NO... i am sure there is no HOPE now...
I have to Accept this REALITY......!! but again one question is still remain....
WHY I AM ALIVE........??????????
No Answer.... Still finding......
Still Searching......... A LIFE.....MY LIFE......!!

kis ke dar pe main jaaun..
kiske aage main guhaahar lagaun
chahata hun sache dil se bas yahi
ki tujhe main apni mannaton me paaun..

tere bin naa jee paungaa
teri yaadon ko sath leke kahan jaunga....
sochta hun tu naa mila agar....
to apni saason se kaise tujhe mitaunga...

zindagi khel hai agar kismat ka....
to khuda ki kasam tere pyaar k sahare
main apni kismat se khel jaunga....
gar fir bhi na haasil hua tu mujhe......
to main ek yaad bankar gahri neend me so jaunga.....!

kuch dhundh rahi thi ke tum mil gaye..
Fir kuch khwahishen jagi to tum kho gaye..
tanha se the pahle bhi ab aur tanha ho gaye..
na jaane kya talash thi.. fir na jane kya mil gya tha..
na jane kyu main gai thi un raston se... fir na jane kyu vo manjil ban gya tha..
ho gaye hain kai baras bhatakte hue un raaston pe..
manjil nhi..raah nhi.. ab to baaten hain ya yaden hai dard bhari raton me..
intezaar tera nhi hai par fir bhi aankhon ko jane kinki talash hai..
zindagi ko tere se milne ki shayad aj bhi aas hai.

i love u

kis ke dar pe main jaaun..
kiske aage main guhaahar lagaun
chahata hun sache dil se bas yahi
ki tujhe main apni mannaton me paaun..

tere bin naa jee paungaa
teri yaadon ko sath leke kahan jaunga....
sochta hun tu naa mila agar....
to apni saason se kaise tujhe mitaunga...

zindagi khel hai agar kismat ka....
to khuda ki kasam tere pyaar k sahare
main apni kismat se khel jaunga....
gar fir bhi na haasil hua tu mujhe......
to main ek yaad bankar gahri neend me so jaunga.....!

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