what I am feeling.......

Everything is Sad in life...n i dont know why...
There is no star of hope in ma Sky....
Deep darkness inside ma heart...
i am dying daily but i Want to Fly...!!
M sitting alone & waiting for rain..
There are only dark clouds & lot of pain…
No sleep in ma eyes … I am feeling like insane…
Unsatisfied … sad… emo … & a looser but
I want to breathe & I want to live again…!!
I am Not happy … nor sad..
Nothing Good in life…nor bad…
I am feeling less..like a Stone ….no sensation…
Whatever it will be… Life or Death….
Now…………No Reaction………….!!


By – Parul Bhatnagar… (20-Aug-09)

“Meri Zindagi………………”

Thodi uljhi hai to kabhi Suljhi si hai…..
Kabhi hairaan ..Kabhi Pareshaan si hai….
Kabhi khili khili dhoop to kabhi bilkul bejaan si hai…
Kabhi hai uska thikana ..to kabhi gumshuda si hai…!!
Kabhi lagti hai apni …to kabhi bhut anjaan si hai..!!

Dhundhun main kabhi aangan mein to milti hai chhipi kone mein….
Hoti nahi jab vo kareeb ..darr lagta hai usko khone se….!!

Akele raah mein khadi na jaane kya Taakti hai…
Na koi tha humsafar kabhi uska… jane fir kisko duaaon me maangti hai..!!
Kya khoya ab tak usne ..uska to koi hissaab nahi…
Kya paya hai ..uska bhi koi uske paas jawaab nahi….!!

Har pal darti hai …. Kuch kahna hai use ,na jane fir kyun Saham jati hai…..
Jane kisko Khone ke darr mein vo roj thoda sa aur marr jati hai…!!

Usko khabar nahi shayad ke aayengi khushiyaan sirf uske muskurane se….
Aarju hai vo lag jaye gale ek baar aakar kisi bahane se…!!
Par na jane kab hoga usko ye Ehsaas ….
Kiski kami hai usko kyun hai vo khud se itni Udaas…!!

Badlega kabhi ye banjar mausam ..hogi kabhi uske aangan bhi khushiyon ki Barsaat…!!
Dua hai na honge fir uske ghar Sannate … na rahegi Khamoshi bhari raat….
Khwahish hai dekhun “Zindagi” ko apni main hanste hue .. Bas Ek baar…!!

- Parul Bhatnagar ( 18-Aug-09)

For Someone very Special.......

Tu aaja ke kuch bojhal si saansen hain…

Tere khone ka darr hai aur khamosh Raaten hain…

Tu aaja ke Chanda bhi Tanha hai Sitaron ke sath….

Mere lab karte hain sirf dard bhari baat….

Phoolon ki Mehak gum ho gai hai ….

Har ghadi sirf tere intezaar me kati hai…

Tu aaja ke ab waqt gujarta hi nahi….

Tu aaja ek baar ke zindagi ka karj ab akele utarta hi nahi..!!



Lamha lamha hai tanha tanha…

kona kona hai soona soona…

bhut kuch khoya hai tujhe paane ke vaste…

ab tu aaye to kabhi fir door na hona..!!

Mera astitav tujhse… mera vajood bhi tu hi… mere zarre zaree me tu hai rahta….

Tu jo na mile to main bhi marr jaun .. Akele ik pal bhi nahi katta…!!

Tu aakar dekh ek baar ki kitna tanha hun main zindagi ki rahon me…

khwahish karta hun ab maut bhi aaye to sirf teri baahon mein….!!

Ye mere din ..ye andheri raaten…ye mere dil ki khamoshi ..aur vo tere unkahe vaade….

teri ek jhalak ko tarasti aankhen…..aur vo teri dard bhari yaadein…..

Sab pukarte hai tujhe …..

Tu aaja ke ab waqt gujarta hi nahi….

Tu aaja ek baar ke zindagi ka safar ab tanha katta hi nahi..!!

tu aaja Sirf Ek baar……….!!

- Parul Bhatnagar
(7-Aug-09)