KAASH.............!!

Bahut waqt guzra… bahut kuch badla… par jaane kyun aaj bhi yahi gumaan hota hai….
Tu jo KASH yahan hota…

Mere Ghar ke aangan me roj dhoop hi hoti hai...
KASH ek roj tu aata to hansi Shaam bhi aati…
Tu jo gaa deta to shayad baadal bhi garjte….
Tu hans deta to meri Baarish bhi hoti…!!

Chup chaap baithen hai sadiyon se ..
mere ghar ke aangan me ye saare mausam….
inko bhi sirf TERA hi intezaar hai….
Jane kis umeed par raah dekhe hain teri…
Shayad kuch meri tarah ye bhi PAGAL hain..!!

Zindagi veeran si lagti hai…
Bhut kuch hai mere aas paas fir bhi
ab Meri parchhai mujhe anjaan si lagti hai…!!

Ek saya tha jo aksar sath chalta tha…
Tab raaste bhi roshan hua karte the…
Thoda dard ,kuch dhundhli yaaden
Chand siskate hue khwaab…aur aansu se bheege kuch lamhe
bas Mujhko meri ab yahi pahchaan si lagti hai..!!

khud se poochun to koi Jawaab nahi milta….
Gaur se Dekhun to kahin koi Sawaal nahi milta…
Tera dard bhi ab khushi deta hai..
Kya Karen teri yaadon k siva humko kahin ab araam nahi milta..!!


Ajeeb hai zindagi ka Kissa…. saamne hai manjil…
Magar baaki abhi poori KAHANI hai…!!
Tu likha nahi hai in hathon ki lakeeron me
Magar zindagi me …zindagi ki TALAASH ab bhi zari hai…!!


- By – Parul Bhaatnagar …!!
(3rd May 09 , 8:25 pm)

“Jate hain jidhar sabhi…..
Main udhar kyun nahi jata….??

Milta hun jisse Roj band aankhon me…
Khuli aankhon se use Dhoondh kyun nahi pata..!!

Dekhta hun darwaje pe har waqt main…
Vo koi khushi leke mere paas kyun nahi aata ??

Rootha hun is zamane se sadiyon se main…
Vo ek hansi deke mujhko mana kyun nahi jata….???


Zindagi bojh si lagti hai ab to mujhe….
Vo khud aake mujhe dafna kyun nahi jata…??



By – parul bhatnagar

“Ab ke mila vo kuch is tarah mujhse….
Jhootha sa laga uska fir aana aise….
Ajnabi ki tarah poocha usne mera haal….
Maine bola Zinda hun…jaise ek Laash….!!
Kat rahi hai zindagi…lambhi ho jaye jaise ek tanha raat….!!
Waqt gujarta hai …teri yaadon me har din raat….
Marne ki khwahish karte hain hum….har saans ke saath…!!
Jhoothi tasalliyon me humne jeena ab diya hai chhod….
Ajnabi sa lagne laga hai zindagi ka har mod….!!

Sab sunke fir kaha usne…. Ab to samajh jao..
Yahi zindagi hai….isi ko jeena hai……!!

Maine kaha….ye zindagi hai to fir marna kya hai???”

- by parul Bhatnagar – 10 feb 2008

Lash hun main …ab jala bhi dalo…
Yahi aakhri rasam bachi hai use nibha dalo….!!
Na honge hum fir…na humari yaadein….
Vo sare lamhe..sare manjar aaj meri rakh me mila dalo….!!
Maar to diya tha bhut pahle zindagi ne humko…
Aaj mere sapno , meri khwahishon ko bhi mere sang jala dalo….!!
Ab yahi aakhri rasam bachi hai use nibha dalo……!!


By – Parul Bhatnagar

Jab dekha to pahchaan nahi paaya..
Apni parchhai ko jab khud se door khada paaya….

Main khada raha chup-chaap magar wajood hil gya…
Awaaj na hui magar zindagi ka sabse haseen khwaab Bikhar gaya….

Jab aankhen band kari tab usi rishtey ke tukdon ki chuban mahsoos kari…
Par fir bhi Humne har saans ke sath tujhko fir pane ki dua kari…

Waqt badla har manjar badla…
Kayamat to thi ke tu bhi apni har baat se badla….

Jo na badla vo tha MAIN…
Aur
Jo na badlega kabhi vo hoga –
"Tere laut aane ka nakaam INTEZAAR"

- Parul Bhatnagar (24 april 08)

Dara Sa baitha hai seene mein kahin ek khyaal tera...
Fir kabhi yun Ansuon me bah jata hai Armaan mera...
Chup hai aaj zingadi meri....
Chup sa hai aaj Aasmaan mera..
Dhundhati firti hun beete hue Lamhon me tujhe....
AAnkho me aaj bhi hai intejaar tera...
E- jaane vaale ek baar to samjh.... y
e Adhura sa Pyaar mera.....!!

- By PArul Bhatnagar (15 june08)

“Saans le raha hun par zinda nahi hun main..
Toota hua hun… par abhi bikhra nahi hun main…
Jin aakhri umeedon ke sahare tha zinda….
Unhi sahaaron ko Beech raah tanha chhod aaya hun main…
Hoke zuda zindagi se apni hua ehsaas ….
Apna wajood to uske paas hi dafan kar aya hun main…
Har lamha bhi ek ehsaan ki tarah basar hota hai ab to
Apni pahchaan ko andheron me kahin kho aya hun main…
Meri Aankhon se poocho ke raat kaisi gujri….
Unki yaadon se khud ko ab tak zuda na kar paya hun main..!!

Haqikat kya hai meri ye jaanta hun ...
Par fir bhi apni haar nahi manta hun main…
Har mausam me zindagi tera rang dekha hai maine…
Ye patjhad ka ped ab hara na hoga ye bhi janta hun main…
Laut ke savan mera kabhi aayega nahi…
Jane kyun fir bhi bearish se pyaar ab tak karta hun main…
Teri yaadon me jiya hun…andheron ki aadat hai mujhe…
Tujhe paana chahata hun par ujaalon se darta hun main…
Sath hai ab tak teri baaten vo sare wade,,,,
Fir bhi zindagi me bhut akela hun main!!”
By – Parul Bhatnagar (3 july08 , 3am)

Kuch bhool gya tha aaj main…..
Par Kal Main tera kiya har wada jala dunga…
Jo kuch poochenge log dhuan dekh kar…unko teri Tasweer ki raakh dikha dunga…..!!
Koi teri kahi baat gar fir yaad aai…..to apni aankhon se kuch aansu aur baha dunga….!!
Par kal main tera kiya har wada jala dunga….
Jo fir bhi na neend aai mujhe raaton ko….To main apna har Khwaab mita dunga….!
Par kal main tera kiya har wada jala dunga….
Jo Fir bhi goonji teri awaaj mere dil ke sanatton me….To teri har yaad unhi andheron me dafna dunga….!
Par kal main tera kiya har wada jala dunga….
Jo fir bhi gar tu mil jaye kahiin mujhme…..To kal main apna Wajood bhi mita dunga…!!
kal main tera kiya har wada jala dunga….!!



By – Parul Bhatnagar ( 29th July …2 AM)

Is Tanha dil ko kaun samjhaye....
woh kambhakt dard rah rah ke vaapas aata hai....!!
Main har baar samet ta hun yaadon ko apne dil me....
Fir vahi dard uthta hai..aur sab bikhar jata hai...!!

Fir har subah tujhe dhundhta hun main apni zindagi mein...
Fir har raat ye baat yaad dilati hai tu chhod chuka hai mujhe...!!

Main teri yaadon ko zinda rakhta hun apne dil mein...
Aur fir har raat teri yaad aakar Maar jati hai mujhe...!!

by - Parul Bhatnagar

“Mitti Aur Zindagi..!!”

“Mitti” jab pakdo to fisal jati hai…
Jab bhi sambhalo ..hathon se nikal jati hai….

Kuch aisi hi hai ZINDAGi…..

Mere hathon me thamti hi nahi…!!
Main sambhalta hun to khud hi gir jata hun…..
Khada hona bhi thoda mushkil hai is MITTI me….!!

Hazar sawalon ka jawaab dhundhta hun..
Par Kuch hath nahi lagta….
Aur khud Tanha Ghira Pata hun…
Unhi Sawaalon ke beech…!!

Jee raha hun ek aisi Zindagi Jo Sirf Ek Sawaal hai..”Mitti” Kya hai???
Kuch nahi …ya Shayad Ant me vahi sab …
Samjho to bhut kuch hai…
Varna sirf MITTI hi hai…!!

Jab Sambhalo to Hathon se Fisalti jati hai….
Par jab door hona chaho to
Apne hathon me hi chhipi mil jati hai…!!

Jitna Samjho …Utna Ulajh jao….
Sirf Sawal hai …... yaa....
Ye vo Jawaab hai jiska koi Sawaal nahi….???

Jaise Mitti ke bheetar saans nahi aati….
Mujhe vaisi hi Ghootan Hoti hai….
Insaan to Marne ke baad Mitti me milta hai….
Main vahin hun…Aisa mujhe jeete ji lagta hai …!!

Saanse kam hain Shayad Aur….Main Akela hun….Bas kuch Unsuljhe Sawalon ke Beech…!!

- Parul Bhatnagar ( 20 Dec- 08)

“chale the kuch koss….
Magar kadam mere phir ruk gaye…
Kahna tha jihe kuch…
Kahe bina hi laut gaye…
Aaj fir baat dil mein rah gai….
Jaise humari saasen unke haathon me rah gai…
Laut to aai hun..kuch bina kahe..
Par lagta hai isme bhi arse lag gaye…

Kab milenge vo…
Ab to tamnna hai yahi…
Mile to ek baar chaahe sapne me hi sahi…
Kah doongi tab apne sabhi dile-raaj…
Jaane kab aayegi vo raat…!!

By-parul bhatnagar

khushi ki khoj

main dhoondh rahi hoon khushi ko..
par jane kyun har kadam pe gum mil jata hai..
main bhool jana chahati hoon usko..
jane kyun vo har kadam pe sath chalta najar aata hai…!!

Roshani se mujhe lagne laga hai darr…
Kyunki andheron me basa hai mera ghar….!!


Roshni ko dekhe to ho gai hai muddat…
Dil me ek kasak ban kar rah gai hai vo shihdat…
Andheron me chalne ki mujhko ho gai hai aadat..
Phir bhi KHUSHI ki mujhko hai chahat…!!

Apna ghar hi khanjaron me banaya hai maine…
Na jane kyun phir chain se jeene ki dua maang rahi hoon main….!!

By-parul bhatnagar

“koshish to kari thi bhulane ki….
Par tum yaad aa rahe ho…
Har lamha lag raha hai….
Ki tum kuch aur kareeb aa rahe ho….!!!

Maine tumko kyun samjha apna…..
Jaan kar bhi ki tum ho ek sapna…..
‘sapna’ the to toot gaye……
paas aate aate tum kyun mujhse rooth gaye….
Tum bin khushion se mere sare naate chhoot gaye….!!!

Waqt se thokar khai humne…
Kismat ne dhokha de diya…
Dil bewafa niklaa…
Aur humne tumko kho diya….!!

Jab yun chhod ke chal dena tha, to kyun aaye the paas….
Tum hi the jisne in aankhon ko dikhaye sapne hazaar…..
Humne bahut pukara tumhe,par tumne na mud ke dekha…
Jaate jaate tum de hi gaye apni yaad……!!!!

Ab hum in yaadon ke sahare hain…
Par sach kah rahe hain ….
Aaj bhi sirf tumhare hain….!!!
Dil me aaj bhi kahin zinda hai vo ahsaas….
Ek baar mud kar dekh lo….
Hum aaj bhi vahin hain…jahan kal the tumhare saath….!!!”


By-parul Bhatnagar

Aaj bhi

Aaj bhi intejaar hai tera in aankhon me….
Aaj bhi pyaar hai mujhe teri un baaton se…
Dhundhla sa hi sahi…
Par aaj bhi aitbaar hai mujhe tere un vadon pe…!!

Tanhaai me dhoondhti hoon aksar…
Teri hi tasweer ke tookde….
Jood ke rakhti hoon zindgi ke panno ko….
Jo chhod gye the tum zameen par hi pade….!!

Samet kar rakha hai maine har vo lamha…
Aaj bhi yaad karti hoom…tumhare vaade…
Jab hoti hoon bhut tanha….!!

Nahi bikharna chahati hoon main ab aur….
Teri in yaadon mein…
Samet le mujhe…e-jaane wale….
Bhar le mujhe apni bahon me….!!


Jood de mere toote hue sapno ko phir se…
Bhar de un me rang apne hi in hathon se…
Dila de mujhe mera vishwaas aaj phir….
Tere un vaadon pe….!!!

By:parul Bhatnagar…

Pal me hi bichhad gaye vo….
Pal me hi badal gaye vo….
Kal tak jo sath the mere…
Pal me hi jane kahan kho gaye vo…!!

Pal mein sara manjar badal gaya…
Khushi ka jamana dukh ki raat me badal gaya….
Main khadi hi rah gai…
Aur vo bhut door nikal gaya…!!

Main nahin jaanti ki agale pal kya hoga mere sath…
Par jise chaha tha bas vahi na hoga mere paas…!

Meri zindagi ab badal hi jaayegi….
Chahat meri ab sapno me hi so jayegi…!!

Har waqt jiske intejaar me tha gujaara….
Usne hi na mujhe dil se pookara…..!!


Har lamha jiski soch me ye dil dooba raha….
Usi ki amaanat hai ye ki….
Dil ab hai dard sah raha …!!


By-parul bhatnagar

Hate Me As I Do….!!

Shattered & Crushed dreams & My Life badly Screams…
Someone is Dying & I am the Killer it Seems…!!

I confess, I have done this Crime…
I hate my existence, this looks like my Soul’s Grime…!!

I have decided to live till my death ….
Now I hate my self with every single breath …!!

I am killing Myself Everyday….
I want Pain & ache, Tears …Each day..!!

I HATE Parul …ME ….Myself & I
I still Alive but really I just want to DIE…!!

But I will live & every moment I will pay….
As now I decide to hurt my self everyday……!!

I HATE …HATE….Hate…& Just HATE….
This is Parul & this is Her FATE……..!!


- By - Parul...!!

End Calling….!!

"I have broken wings n dead dreams…
I am Alive but with no Heartbeat, It seems..!"
Emotions are frozen now…
Feelings are deceased now….!!
Heart is full of ache….
Itz a pain when Relationship break…!!
Hope is Dying …
Trust is Fading….
Days are now less….
My End is calling….!!”


- By - Parul Bhatnagar..!!

After Me….!!

One day I will be dead
& after that I will never make you Sad….
Then you will never be able to see me
& you will never feel bad…!!

I will be lost some where in the Sky…
Life will become easier to you as you will never listen again my Cry..!!

I will sleep Alone forever in my Graveyard …
With some dead dreams & sad tears in my Dry Heart …!!

With me, your sadness will also disappear forever ….
Then my voice will die … & that u will never hear …!!

Then I will never come back to you …..
In Last I will gift – A very happy new Life to you …!!

(life without ME)

- By - Parul Bhatnagar

Last Breathe….!!

I was dying last night….I have asked you
with me can u die…you was silent…
I got your reply…so I died last night alone..!!
This is not the story of Yesterday night…Its a tale of every night…
It is like a game of Time…
M dying on every minute of darkness…
& on every Dark I used to ask same question with u…
& every time I got Same answer from you…
& every dark I used to die alone….!!
I have no hope I have no expectation…
But I have one broken Delusion
I have one dead dream…
I know That will never come In front of me
one night….I wana die…Not alone but together u & I
But still with same I have one pain
In ma heart…that you are far…& also apart!!
But again its a matter of time
This optimism will wash one night
that dark I will breath
& on that Breathe will be my LAST....!!


- By - Parul Bhatnagar...!!

We DON'T NEED WE….!!

I'm left with Emptiness in my soul…..
Walking in darkness all alone……!!
You still have a Heart…But I don't have,
its lostSomewhere in Past…!!
But l I have so many Wishes, I still want to make….
I have so many I love you's still left Unsaid….!!
In my eyes, so many Tears are still uncried….
But you can't feel themAs now you are not by my side.!!
We had shared so many Dreams in past…
Now there are so many Dreams left to fall apart…!!
One day you told "Now You Don't NEED ME….
Today I'm saying "We DON'T NEED WE"…..!!


By - Parul Bhatnagar

Grudges & pain…!!

You are lonely in Big World & surviving with Pain…
& you don’t have anything else to sustain…!!
 
You have Pain of being Alone…
You’ve Acquaintances but still feeling Unknown...!!

Life becomes itself an Unsolved Mystery…
You are just fighting in dark…without any History…!!
 
No Hope ... No Raise … No Trust & No Light….
Life is Colorless …Just like White…!!
 
Every night you found your Tears on Pillow…
You know there is no other way out so let them Go….!!

You are giving false hope to yourself Everyday…
That one day shadows of Yesterday will fade away….!!
 
Now you are a human without any blood, running Sadness in your vein…
Your last Wish is to Die.. but without Grudges & Pain…!!


- By Parul !!

Addicted to pain…!!

Grey Clouds in Dark Sky..
You can feel the pain in my Eyes…!

I am Alone in Sleepless night…
I just wanna your last Sight…!!

I am closing my eyes & trying to Feel…
But now I am EMPTY…no Feelings… I know..
DEEP WOUND cant be heal…!!

I am ADDICTED TO PAIN…..
want to sleep… m Waiting for RAIN…!!


Tears are Dry now….
I want to ask Questions..but how??
I have lost my FAITH….
Have lost my Sky….
I know in this world only Pain is MY….!!

I don't have Words to write…now I am Mum…
I know the truth… that
"My rain will never Come…!!"


- By- Parul..!!

Still Loves You.…!!

Thanks buddy for everything you do.
I just wana say “I still Loves you”
I promise you Today…
I will never Cry again in Front of you…
Now I will hide all my Tears from you…!!
For you I will stay happy there…
& will never show you how much m lonelier now here…
From today you always find Happiness in my Eyes….
But I will never tell you about my soul’s cries….
Everyday I will die a little more in my darkness…
& I will cry alone with my loneliness….
You told me one day you will wipe away all my Tears…
But Dear..Today m again so ALONE with all my FEARS…!!


- Parul Bhatnagar

Beyond Love….!!

In morning he asked – are you Fine?
I smiled & said nothing just matter of Time…!!
I cried a lot last Night…any one can judge that
From swollen eyes of mine…!!
I was thinking about the day when he said
“Nothing is good between you & me from the starting…”
From that day I used to say m Alive but I think actually I am slowly dying..!!
From the lessons of life I have learned “Life Goes On”
Doesn’t matter How much you are ignored or Alone…!!
Now Life has no Color just like Water….
No Dreams…No hopes….in my life now nothing matter….!!
M walking but Unable to find the Direction….
Its paining like broken Dreams & Dead Expectations….!!
With Injured Wings now it is Difficult to Fly…..
Years left…but still sometimes I just want to Die…!!
Now don’t have anything to lose expect Life…
But in last I wana say to you my last GOODBYE…!!
With badly injured Love…


- Parul Bhatnagar

Touch My Life….!!

Touch my Life….
In the way you Like…..!!

See your Dreams and find ME there….
Forget all your pains , as from today I am here….!!
Close your Eyes and touch the Sky….
Take all my Smiles and give me all your Sighs ….!!
Feel Me in your Love…
Feel Me in your Smile…
No matter what the situation is
We are close or away a Mile…!!
I know life is a struggle
Pain , Soreness , Ache & troubles are every where….
Trust Me , all your loneliness & sadness ,
with Me you can Share…!!
So my Friend , Buddy or a beautiful Pal…
Hold my Hand & feel my Soul…!!
In My Verve… In my Mind….
Now the only thing is YOU….
In last I want to say -
"I was , I am & I Will always be true to You…!!

So Dear…Before I Die…..
Please Touch My Life…!!


- By - Parul Bhatnagar...!!

Friend ..i am Always here for You..!!

Sometimes when you feel blue..
Don't think you are Alone… I am always with you..!!
You can use my shoulders to shed your Tear…
I will wipe away your Life's Fear….!!
Take my Smiles & put up on your Face…
In time of Difficulty, dear m your Brace …!!
If you have any Ache , & Pain please handover..
I will keep them with me, so that you will become Happy Forever..!!
I will Cry , Smile & Laugh with you…Dear Friend,
i will Show all colors of Life to You…!!

By - Parul Bhatnagar

“MISS YOU…MY LOVE..”

“MISS YOU…MY LOVE..”

I am in love or not…

Don’t ask from me…

Just ask from your heart….!!

I lock in my heart…

All the sweet dreams…

From you..I got..!!

Now my life becomes beautiful …

Just like a blossom rose…

In a silver flower pot…!!

You are in my dreams..

And in my wishes…

Now please come in my life….oh darling

I MISS YOU A LOT……!!!

- By Parul Bhatnagar..!!